Understand the reason(s) why I enjoy so much healing through touch and how I can improve this.
Its also about what is lacking for me and how I can fill in the gaps.
Probably one of the ways is to now let myself unwind, to build my physical strength, add some asana practice before working on my pranayama. I will then be ready to listen and to hear. Probably the answers will thrn appear so clear. Time is one healer, place and touch the others. I am taking the time, I have come to the place, as for the touch, well that is the tricky part ;-).... 
